Jillian Michaels obviously never went to film school.

I tried Jillian, I tried! I'm not giving up on you...I'm simply putting you off for a little bit.

To be honest, I don't really have the time or energy to update right now, but I haven't written in quite some time, because I've been too busy, so I figured that my two whole followers deserve a small dose of Destini.

Let me give you a little taste of what my life has been like the past couple weeks, and what it's going to be like for the next four. It has been a non-stop filming party! On Friday, I had a film shoot in Berkeley, CA 10am-5pm, then I came back and had a meeting with my new director friend. Saturday, I was busy the entire day, leading up to another film shoot in Burlingame, CA from 5:30pm-4am. I had previously been asked to take over a spot in another film shoot in Golden Gate Park today, when multiple people bailed on a guy I know. The shoot was scheduled from 7am-7pm, with a three hour break in the middle 12-3 when I had to run to the sound labs and mix sounds for my upcoming film. At about 5:30am, I realized agreeing to that was a horrible, horrible mistake and I too backed out. I felt horrible about it, even though I shouldn't, because I was the only one with a good reason for backing out... I literally couldn't open my eyes. I would have probably pushed myself to go, despite utter exhaustion, except that this week is also going to be extremely busy, climaxing with my performance in Vagina Monologues at the end of the week (pun intended).

I regretted not committing more to Jillian like I had planned, yesterday/this morning at the shoot, when I spent the majority of my screen-time in a bathing suit. But honestly, how does she expect me to squeeze her in with this crazy schedule I have? I'm planning on going back to the gym tomorrow... so little by little, I'll work her back into my life.

I'm not a violent person, but there's a lot of people I feel like punching these days.
Well, not really. I would never do that, but a lot of people are trying to fight me and when I get mad, I only threaten violence.
"I will punch you. I will dropkick you. I will cage-fight you. I will light you on fire."
But of course I would never do that.

I do however, have a lot of anger to unleash...and screaming a bunch of times (in character) in that film yesterday felt reeeeally good. I'm thinking about joining a kickboxing class or something when I get back to FL for the couple weeks I have free before my surgery.


Plus side: I've met a lot of really cool people lately, and I'm already excited for next semester!

Jillian Michaels: Day One.

I decided that with summer and my surgery coming up, and since I will basically be spending my entire recovery time at the beach, I need to look hot doing it! So, I went out and bought Jillian Michaels' book, "Making the Cut". It teaches you about nutrition, and walks you through a rigorous diet and exercise plan. She says that if you follow this book to the letter, you could lose 20 pounds in 30 days. I'm not trying to lose 20 pounds, but I am trying to get a 6 pack, so this book will work wonders on me too. Now, I am no stranger to working out, but I am accustomed to eating whatever I want, whenever I want, with few consequences, so this will be an interesting month.

After a few days of being too busy or tired, and saying, "I'll start tomorrow," I finally bit the bullet today. Here's basically how that went down.

I don't feel comfortable disclosing too many details from the book, because I'm not sure Jillian would appreciate me taking away her sales by making her information public. So, I'll just tell you this: It was HARD...but awesome. 50 reps of this, 50 reps of that, 5 different circuits with like 5+ exercises in them...and a 30 second break in between each circuit. When you're done with all that, 15 minutes of extra cardio. At times, I felt like I was going to cry and scream "I hate you Jillian!" But I toughed it out and it is going to be SO worth it!

I stayed true to her vision, including my allotted 30 second break times. I worked really hard and did all of the exercises, and did them right! Well, um, all but one that is. "Squat thrusts" - Alex, (who is doing this with me too) and I thought that we knew what that meant. Squat thrusts sounds easy enough to comprehend. Well, we didn't do them right. Not at all. A squat thrust, for those of you who don't know, looks a little something like this.

The way Alex and I decided to "Squat Thrust" IN the middle of the gym, looked a little something like this.

Needless to say, tomorrow I'm going to look at Jillian's exercise example pictures a little better.

Here's what my arms look like thus far:

Right now, it's late and I am starving and sore. I've already eaten dinner, and since then, I've been trying to tide my body over with water...and by promising it we will eat again tomorrow.

Alex told me that "Jillian Said" I wasn't allowed to eat triscuits at nighttime, resulting in our newest addition to theeee... Quoteboard!

"Don't tell me what to do or I'm going to get another cardio workout in when I beat your ass!"

- yours, truly