plodding along

It's kind of been so hard for me to adjust back into my San Francisco life. On the one hand, it feels great to be back. It feels great to see my friends here, especially the SF BFFs, Andrew and Lauren. And for the friends I haven't seen yet, I am looking forward to it. But on the other hand, everything feels funny. I don't think I was quite ready to come back yet.. I didn't feel like I had enough un-interrupted time in Florida. My surgery really took it out of me and there are so many things/people I would have really liked to soak up more while I was there. That being said, I was very blessed to have accomplished all the things I accomplished while I was down there, given the circumstances, and I can't really explain my sadness.

I've cried a lot in the past few months, but the other night was a doozy. I really think that having an animal here to cuddle and take care of, would help me a lot with my loneliness. In order to get approved, I'd have to see a therapist, and get their consent. I feel like I could make a pretty good case though.

I've been going to yoga every week. That's really nice. I might start going twice. And I've been trying to meditate more. It really helps in so many ways.

Today I went to see "Never Let Me Go" with Andrew. It was a beautiful film, I would definitely recommend it... but bring tissues, because it is one of the saddest flicks I've seen in a long time. Superb acting! Carey Mulligan is absolutely fabulous. And I love her hair!!

I've been watching a lot of stand up comedy. I'm going to start writing some acts here soon I think, Andrew said that by next summer I will be doing open mic nights. We'll see how that goes- I nearly had a heart attack the other day, when I had to sing in front of the class.

Tonight I had a lovely dinner at a small chinese place, with the sweetest asian staff ever. They comped my pot stickers, because they said that my meal took too long to come out, which it didn't. And their tea was just delightful.